Most days in my 2020 felt like

My chest feel very empty, and it hurts

Feels wrong, and I dont know whats right neither

I've let go what's not for me

Ive said no to what's not for me

I've been pushing my courage to lose things I'm scared of losing

Why is this still feel not right?

When will things go to the right way?

When will I can laugh out loud again?

When will I feel free again?

These emotions are eating my logic again

This sadness, worries, fear, are like an endless sea

And I just keep swimming in it.

13/12/2020